I'm an uncle!

I can just see it now.. that funny/seedy uncle petrol_pumper that gets pissed on red wine at the family christmas dinner..

Like *I* need to prove anything..

-----BEGIN GEEK CODE BLOCK-----
Version: 3.12
GCS d-- s: a- C++++ UL+++ P++ L+++++ E--- W+++ N o-- K w--
O M V- PS+++ PE Y PGP t+ 5 X++ R+ !tv b+++ DI- D++
G-- e* h-- r+ y+++++
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Random update

I heard yesterday that I'm my CIOs nephew!

Wow how cool is that!

Hopefully I'll hear some more interesting things soon.. there's obviously a bit of a rumour mill grinding away somewhere here.

My brothers girlfriend is just about to have their first baby! Which is really cool. An extra member of the family!!

Not much else to report. Currently clustering a couple of webservers and MySQL databases together which is OK but not exactly game testing.

I've got a new baby

She's not great in bed, but she has a really great out-going personality!

Christ how sad does that sound.. :-)

What else can be done?

For the past few weeks I've been in denial. I've not been thinking that anything is at all wrong with Tomoko and I. I didn't want to face the truth about our relationship.

When I was in my late teens and early 20s I had a long term relationship with a girl named Tessa. She was from Tassie like me and we ended up moving to Sydney together when I found I needed to in order to get a career going. In the last 2 years I felt like something had changed. I wasn't sure if it was me or her that had shifted but something was definitely amiss.

I spent the last year of that relationship unhappy yet not talking about it. Tessa seemed almost permanently on my case, I really didn't love her anymore. The last 6 months of that relationship was, of course, horrid. So why did I hold on so long?

I think there were a few reasons:
o Didn't know what I wanted (do I realise what I'm giving; is she the one?)
o Scared to (will I find someone else)
o Didn't want to hurt her feelings

Essentially I think all of that can be put down to the feeling that I hadn't lived life yet. Just too scary!

At least, that's my current analysis of that period.

I've just had a conversation about very similar feelings with Tomoko. Funny that isn't it?

I'll have to do what I wished Tessa had done.

Say "I'll make it easy on you".

-=([TMX-77])=-

I've got it. Did the knowledge test this morning at the RTA, got my ticket, and picked up the bike at lunch. Had to get back to work.. How much fun was it!

• Shat myself turning out of the bike shop.
• Rode in a bus lane.
• Hit neutral at 30 clicks.
• Crept up the side of cars at the red light and made an ass of myself stalling when it went green.
• Did 70 down the freeway with my indicator on.
• Stalled.
• Freaked out when someone passed me in my own lane.
• Got yelled at by a wanker in a minibus.
• Followed another learner with his indicator flashing *chuckle*
• Realised my own indicator was still flashing.
• Pulled over to check my L plate was still on and almost lost balance.

And I've gotta ride home tonight! Woohoo!! (I'm shittin myself)